Mama

Dear Mama,

When I was younger, I was wondering who is my best friend. I have a lot of friends but I don’t know who is my best friend. Best friend is suppose to be the one who understands me the most. At my age (I’m turning 29), this question suddenly pops up again in my head. I realized I’m such a fool looking around for a best friend as I already got you Mama. I made my friends way back in elementary, high school and college days. I gained more friends when I already started working. I’m also lucky to have my brothers as my friends. But it was so stupid of me not to realize that my best friend is just around. I had my ups and downs and you are always there for me. I have tons of failures but you still loved me unconditionally. You rejoice even in little achievement I got. With all the love and protection you gave me, I reciprocated it with rebellion. Instead of thanking you for it, I feel suffocated and want to get out from your scrutiny. Why I only realized now that what you are doing is because you want the best for me. I feel so guilty to remember the days when I answered you back. I feel so bad to recall how many times I made you cry. You are the only one who knows me completely. Maybe not knowing me 100% but you know me more than anyone else in this world. You have seen the worst of me. You feel proud when I’m at my best. I thank you and papa for letting me to know God. I thank you for bringing us up to be a good catholic. I may not be a perfect catholic but I’m doing my best to be good.

I hope God will give us more time to spend together. I hope God will give me an opportunity to let me show how much I love my family. My family is my inspiration to strive harder and dream. I want you to be proud of me. I want you to realize that you are really the best mother in the whole world. I’m such a lucky person to have you and papa as my parents. Thank you for all the hard work you and papa had to endure just for us to finish our studies. Thank you so much Mama. I love you so much Papa and Mama.

Che-Che