Acceptance

There are times that if you will analyze life, either it will give you a good laugh or a further confusion. Being an adult and passing thru different phases of life, it is such a fulfillment to realize that I had passed thru different hardships and chaos in life. I admit that ending this life is an option in order to be freed from the trials I am going thru.

I thank my parents for letting me know that GOD is the only one who has the right to give and take away our lives. I thank my brothers and friends for being there to keep me smiling and my reason to be happy. Though I cannot divulge to them my greatest fear and greatest apprehensions they were there patiently waiting for me to change. I feel sorry that my family received my unending rants, complains and uncanny attitude while I was trying to recuperate from the pain I was going thru. It was so unfair to them that I was trying to evolve on my own and trying to fix things by myself and not wanting them to enter my inner core. I had a very hard time to accept what I had gone thru. I blame GOD so many times. But the more I was trying to question GOD the more I cannot run away from him. With my deepest emotions into him I can only share as I was so afraid of accept reality.

Past is past. It still pains though to accept that is had happened. Maybe in God’s time I can forgive and forget. Right now, I am facing acceptance. I cannot change anymore what had happened. I cannot continue to regret and blame life. I will stand for what is in store for me today. I will be who I am. If GOD, took care of me and proved that I deserve to live, then no man can take away that from me. I will prove my worth on earth.