Ang Lufeeeeet...Ang Paiiiiit

Umiiyak ang puso at sa langit nakatanaw.
Pighati ang dulot ng pag-ibig na ligaw.
Nahumaling ng tuluyan sa dulot mong pag-asa
Subalit dapat supilin ng di tuluyang masadlak sa dusa.

Higit pa sa pagpigil ng aking hininga.
Ang pagtalikod sa iyo sa tuwi tuwina.
Ngunit ang isip at sadyang matino pa.
Harapin ang katotohanan at ito ay labanan.

Sabay sa agos ng ating mahiwagang buhay.
Mga pagsubok na minsan di maka agapay.
Subalit hindi sapat na dahilan upang hayaan.
Tuluyang lamunin at mawala sa katinuan.

Salamat sa mga pangaral, Salamat sa mga dasal
Hindi tuluyang landas ay naging masukal
Kapit sa maykapal at pagsambit ng dasal
Sa araw araw sa bibig at isip aking hinihiyaw.

Kung kelan man dumating ang ligayang dulot.
Ng tunay na pag-ibig na langit ang gumuhit.
Panahon lamang ang tanging makakapagsabi.
Kasalukuyan ang pait sa puso pilit iwinawaglit.

St. Joseph Parish in Phnom Penh

Last Sunday was my first time to visit a real Catholic Church here in Phnom Penh.
Though the mass was in Khmer, it definitely adds up to my growth as a maturing Christian. It widens my sense of appreciation not only for my faith but my appreciation for the Khmer culture.


Now, I will have a broader option on how to attend mass on obligatory days. If there is heavy rain downpour on Saturday afternoon and I miss the mass in World Vision building, I can still attend a mass on Sunday morning in St. Joseph Parish near Japanese bridge.


I know my faith with God's blessing let me wander and let me come closer on my purpose in this lifetime.

Uncertainty

It hurts me.
It kills me.

Why it has to be this way?
I DO NOT want it this way.

Let me forget you.
Let me NOT forget you.

Let me love you.
Let me NOT love you.

Stay away from me.
Please DO NOT leave me.

I am lying to myself.
And it’s shattering me to pieces.

Pagmasdan Mo Naman

Oi kaibigan kelan mo ba huling pinagmasdan,
Ganda ng mundo, handog ng kalikasan.
Pasumandaling tumigil sa pinagkakaabalahan
Iyong damhin samyo ng hangin at sikat ng araw.

Di man kanais nais minsan hanging nalalanghap
Hindi sapat na dahilan upang di magpasalamat.
Sa buhay na bigay ng ating Poong Maykapal.
Sa Pag-ibig na sa puso ay nananalaytay.

Ganid man ang mga taong sa atin ay nakapalibot.
Hindi sapat na dahilan upang tayo ay mag damot.
Maging bukas ang palad at loob sa iyong kapwa
Huwag mithiin na isadlak ni isa man sa dusa.

Pag-ibig na walang dungis ay sadyang matamis.
Pagka pantay-pantay sa lipunan ay aking ninanais.
Panalangin ko ay tatag sa gitna ng sigalot.
Lakas ng loob na tanging sa Diyos ako huhugot.

My Beautiful Southeast Asia

**courtesy of Nations Online Project**

My beautiful Southeast Asia continously fascinates me.

For most of the western people, they see Southeast asian countries and race almost same with each other. But if you will dig deeper you can see that each country has its unique and beautiful culture.

Most of these countries had been colonized by various western and other asian countries. Which in a way created a different fusion of culture, language, religion and belief.

This part of the earth had been battered by colonizers, grief stricken wars, phenomenal natural disasters and other man made or natural catastrophies. But faith in God, strong family ties and love for the country keeps the people fight back and move on with their lives.

It is funny to think that in Southeast Asia you can find the 3rd World nations but it is also a fact that here in Southeast Asis you can find the richest people on earth.

Number of men and women sacrificed their lives to fight for the honor of their motherlands. Parents keep struggling to fight poverty and illiteracy to brigthen the future of the next generation. Younger generations are fired up to keep the flame burning for patriotism and service to mankind.

As I had been to three Southeast Asian countries, namely, The Philippines - my homeland, Vietnam - the first country I traveled for work and Cambodia - wherein Im working right now, the urge in me to travel the whole Southeast Asia continous.

It is my dream to travel all the eleven (11) countries before I reach 33 yers of age.

Definitely We Have A Purpose

In our so called life, I personally believe that each and everyone was given a purpose that we must fulfill at the right time. We were not created just to occupy a space but rather we are meant for something special or let’s just say we are on a mission. When I was in fourth grade, I was already aware that the life given was full of mysteries. I was amazed how my life revolves around my family. I was mesmerized how my parents lives revolve around us, their children. In those times I was so aware how my teachers and my classmates were affecting my everyday endeavors and little by little creating a change in my character.

There are times that I caught myself staring at someone for a long period of time and thinking who is he/she?, what is he/she doing?, why is he/she doing it? What is his/her life all about? How does it feel to be in his/her shoes? I got easily curious of anything or anyone that catches my attention or my sight. Sometimes I got angry and reminds myself that it is non of my business.

But then again, if others business is really non of my business how come our lives are entangled with one another. In the beginning, our lives were born on this world through another life. If others business is really non of my business how come any decision we make, may it be worst or good in result will affect another life. There are times that I got paranoid and get really curious of everything that is happening around me. I know for the fact that I should not let another life succumb me to misery but how come most of the times the happiness we are succumb to
are coming from another life. If another life can make us happy then we should accept the fact that they can definitely give us misery.

I will be on my 29th year living on this planet. And until now, my eagerness to find out how to fullfill what is my life all about stirs my curiosity. It keeps me wandering and wondering. I want and I do believe that some day I will prove to this world that I am not just a matter who occupies space. I am a God’s servant that in proper time will fulfill a mission and my purpose in this life time.

And I am Telling You...

it doesn’t matter what they say
you always brighten up my day
life maybe be cruel at times
continue to fight hold on tight

insanity denies the truth
belies reality and succumb to envy
this is just the beginning
face them without giving in.

never stoop lower than your morals
never compromise your life
in time you will reap what you sow
in time they will believe in awe.