Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Last Day of 2008

It was strange but the last hour of 2008 I received new orders from new buyers. New buyer means new accounts which I will handle now. I was suppose to leave the office at 4pm but at around 3pm I received emails informing me that I got new orders. I was really excited as it means I will look forward to 2009 having orders. I was not that busy for the last weeks of 2008 as I got very few orders and some were even cancelled. So receiving these orders really means a lot to me. I won't mind staying longer in the office today and I won't mind coming to office tomorrow.

Thank you for Lord for this blessing and I will do my very best to fulfill my job and prove that I am worthy for the position.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

One Sunday Morning in Phnom Penh

St. Joseph Parish









Crystal Dome and Chenla Theater





Stung Mean Chey Buddhist Cementery



Magnificent 2008

Year 2008 will be over in less than 2 days. This year was truly a magnificent year for me. Tons of tears were shed, lots of lesson learned, I met new friends, rediscover old friends, get to know myself more, build my confidence more, still failed with my weight reduce mission, learned to eat and enjoy food which makes me throw up before and so much more. I’m not sure if it was the age but lately I realized I get easily pissed off if things went wrong. I got my Chicken Soup for the Soul books – 4 Books. This year I was able to be in three countries. Cambodia, where I am working right now. Philippines, when I had my vacation leave last July. Vietnam, when I visited it last November during Water Festival holiday. For the year 2008, I think I missed going to Saturday or Sunday Catholic Mass less than 5 times only though I badly missed going to Church during the Lenten season. So many things were done and so many things happened. I am getting use to be away from my family. I love them so much and miss them always. Wish I am with them in special occasions but I love the freedom of being alone. I love to explore life independently. I love to realize things by myself right now. My parents were great and they gave everything but there are times I feel I am suffocated with their protection. Embarrassing to admit but on my 29th year on this earth, is the only year in my life I did it my (with tons of prayers) way. I was so fortunate that I came from family who had a strong Catholic life upbringing. Though I am away from my family, I know my responsibility towards my family, towards others and towards God of course.

I love 2008 and I thank God for all the guidance and blessings showered on me this year. To sum it up, year 2008 was a great year for me.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Nicci French

Before the year 2008 ends, I was so thrilled to found a treasure. While searching for Christmas gifts I saw a novel written by a couple with a pseudonym of Nicci French. For the year 2009, my target is to collect all the novels collaborated by the couple.























Note: Pictures courtesy of Penguin Website(publisher)

Friday, December 26, 2008

Oh Bookstore! My Bookstore!

Last Sunday, I went to Peace Book Shop (PBS) here in Phnom Penh. It was my first time to visit the said bookstore as it was quite far from the factory where I work.
I’m sorry to say this but it can never equal National Bookstore of the Philippines. National Bookstore has a wide range of books, magazines, educational toys, school & office supplies, greetings cards, and so much more. Aside from the products, I think National Bookstore is one of the best companies in the Philippines in terms of rendering service to their customers. There staff are usually knowledgeable of there products and very helpful to their customers. I think I can stay in a National Bookstore branch for a day without getting bored. For any special occasion and needs to prepare a gift or card, National Bookstore is my first stop.

Let’s go back now to Phnom Penh. I usually go to the small International Bookstore (IBC) situated in Sihanouk St. Phnom Penh. It is the most accessible bookstore as it is near Lucky Supermarket, Lucky Cafe and Bistro Lorenzo – the Filipino restaurant. They have lots of stuff also but they got a very small selection of books which is quite disappointing (but of course understandable). My apology to say this but the customer service is not that great. In my own observation, the staffs are not quite familiar of what they are selling. Well, just my point of view and I think miscommunication is a big factor.

So last Sunday, I finally found the PBS. The bookstore is quite big and they have a wider product selection. I was excited as usual. I don’t know if because my childhood was deprived by a regular visit to a bookstore but a bookstore always gives me an unexplainable happiness. For me bookstore is synonymous to a record bar or even a toy store.

I searched the whole PBS for a Christmas gift to my colleague at work, to the daughter of my colleague, to a dear friend and her daughter. Fortunately, I was able to accomplish it all.

Christmas Gifts

Yeeeba! I feel like a child again. I got a Christmas card and gifts from friends.
I love the idea that aside from my family there are people who in their own little way make me feel being love. Thank you so much...





Thanks Ate Gemma for the cute printed shorts.

Thanks Ate Ghie for the black blouse.

Thanks Tita Connie for the personalized Christmas card and the elegant necklace.

Thanks Ycel for the nice scented perfume.

Most of all, Thanks to my friend Phy, for always listening for the past six months. I'm not sure if she realizes it but her friendship is the greatest blessing I received this year.

Thanks to those who sent their Christmas message thru SMS, emails and electronic cards.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas!!!

This is my 4th (non-consecutive though) Christmas Day away from my family. As I'm used to it already, it does not made me that sad anymore to spend my Christmas with my colleagues at work instead of my family. I remembered my first Christmas away from my family was really terrible. I cried during the Christmas Eve dinner. I still wish though that I am with my parents who are already growing old. I still wish I am with my two brothers on Christmas morning. But I need to accept my fate that I need to work and live away from them. Though we are separated, my love for them will never ever fade away. They are the one who inspire me to pray and aim for my dreams. They will always be my inspiration to do better in this life.

Last night with my colleagues, we went to Christmas Eve Mass. The trip going to the area was already an adventure as our Tuk Tuk keep turning left and right. But we arrive before the mass started at 6 o'clock so it was fine. Last year, my first Christmas in Cambodia, I got a teary eyed when I heard the Silent Night sang by the choir but now it gives me a smile and this unexplainable happiness.

Before going to church my seminarian brother called me up and it really made me happy. At 11 o'clock in the evening, my new found friend Phy also called me up. For this year, I thank God for blessing me with new friends. Some may find it weird as we have not seen each other in person but for the past six months Phy is my bestfriend and my sister. She is helps me a lot to believe in myself, believe in my dreams and she helps me cope up being away from my family.

With all the hardships the world is experiencing now, all we need to give and receive is LOVE. More than 2000 years ago, a child was born in a manger, for me it is the perfect example of love. In this time of distress, we must take time to talk to our family, friends and even strangers. Someone may need a little talk, an encouragement, a nod, or even a simple hello.

My favorite Christmas quote this year is from a popular celebrity in the Philippines.

''...if we will just realize the real essence of Christmas, every Christmas will be immeasurable...'' - gary valenciano.

Merry Christmas to everyone.Christmas will never be Christmas without Christ.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Friday, December 19, 2008

10 Words Easier Said Than Done

Forgive.

Forget.

Love.

Respect.

Honor.

Faith.

Prudence.

Trust.

Loyalty.

Gratitude.

Words that can only be done with an open heart and an open mind.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Happy Birthday Ryan

I love you my brother dear.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Killing A Day

It was holiday yesterday in celebration of Internation Human Rights Day. I heard that the Cambodian Government requires all companies to pay 300% overtime pay to their employees on this kind of holiday. It order to lessen the labor cost, the management decided to have overtime on Sunday which will cost them only 200%. So I was able to freely left the office at exactly 4 o'clock in the afternoon. I went to Canadia as I want to call my family back home. Here in Canadia you can find internet phones which cost only Riel 200 per minute or USD0.05/min call to Philippines. Unfortunately I was not able to talk to my father but at least I was able to greet my brother who will be celebrating his birthday on the 12th. I was also able to talk to my mother. I tried to call my friend but I guess she already left her office.

After the phone calls, I dropped by in the apartment of on of my colleague and her husband. With two more Filipinos, after dinner we had some beer. I finished off 3 cans of Asahi beer. I feel a little bit dizzy but still able to go home safely. Thank God. Sometimes, you just want to experience new atmosphere and enjoy other peoples company.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Acceptance

There are times that if you will analyze life, either it will give you a good laugh or a further confusion. Being an adult and passing thru different phases of life, it is such a fulfillment to realize that I had passed thru different hardships and chaos in life. I admit that ending this life is an option in order to be freed from the trials I am going thru.

I thank my parents for letting me know that GOD is the only one who has the right to give and take away our lives. I thank my brothers and friends for being there to keep me smiling and my reason to be happy. Though I cannot divulge to them my greatest fear and greatest apprehensions they were there patiently waiting for me to change. I feel sorry that my family received my unending rants, complains and uncanny attitude while I was trying to recuperate from the pain I was going thru. It was so unfair to them that I was trying to evolve on my own and trying to fix things by myself and not wanting them to enter my inner core. I had a very hard time to accept what I had gone thru. I blame GOD so many times. But the more I was trying to question GOD the more I cannot run away from him. With my deepest emotions into him I can only share as I was so afraid of accept reality.

Past is past. It still pains though to accept that is had happened. Maybe in God’s time I can forgive and forget. Right now, I am facing acceptance. I cannot change anymore what had happened. I cannot continue to regret and blame life. I will stand for what is in store for me today. I will be who I am. If GOD, took care of me and proved that I deserve to live, then no man can take away that from me. I will prove my worth on earth.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

I Miss My Brothers

I don't know why but suddenly something creeps in me that makes me miss my brothers terribly. Most of my life I was with my brothers. Being the oldest among my siblings it was fun to see my brothers grew up. Remembering them as babies and now an adults gave me a fulfillment. Maybe because we grew up in a very close family adds to my fascination. I know that in every phase of our lives each and everyone of the family was part of it.

How can I forget those same colored polo, socks, shoes my mother would bought for them on special occassions. I am so proud of them seeing them in basketball uniform every summer. Made me even a prouder sister every Sunday seeing them as altar knights. Both of them were Boy Scouts and even got the Boy Scout of the Year award when they graduated from high school.

During our JS prom, my brother Jojie was not embarrassed to dance with me during the ball. I am not the prettiest and most probably the biggest girl in the dance floor but still my brother asked me for a dance. I was a proud sister everytime our school will send him to another town as a Boy Scout representative. It was an achievement also when our town sponsored their trip to Zamboanga for a Boy Scout event. Amongst the three of us, he was the first one to ride the airplane...hahaha...When he decided to enter the seminary after highschool it was painful to me as I know I won't be seeing him as much as I want to. But I was so proud of him to realize that at his young age he decided that he answered God's calling.

My youngest brother Ryan had his own achievements. After graduating from Technological University of the Philippines, we were so amazed that companies were the one offering him jobs. Just after his graduation, letters from various companies arrived our home and ask him for interviews. It was so amazing as I experienced hardships in applying for a job. At a very young age, his company sent him to Japan to further hone his technical skills and broaden his knowledge. When he went to Japan, it was the first time to be away from him that long. Hearing his voice over the phone made me missed him so much. I remember during his college days, he was so sick that we need to send him to the hospital as we was so weak already. I was so scared as I thought we would loose him. Thank God that he didn't take him away yet.

I miss my brothers, but as we are becoming adults and fulfilling our own missions I have accepted the fact that we will definitely be away from each others. I love them both so dearly that it hurts me so much if we had even little arguments. If we have time to be together, we tried to go somewhere to bond and catch up with each others life. Maybe over coffee, drinks or a videoke session. We won't get tired talking about our dreams and plans for our family.

I love my brothers and they are one of my inspiration to work harder and to live life with happiness. I will continue to pray for your happiness and success. I love you both so much and I thank God for letting me have you as my brothers.

Friday, December 5, 2008

You

sun up, sun down
you i always see...

you don't know
how it pains me
whenever you dont
talk to me...

you give me strength
to continue
believe in my dreams
that i hold unto...

be still...
please be still...
im afraid to loose you...

Contemplating 20 Days Before Christmas

Twenty days to go before Christmas. Yes I am excited. I may be once again away from my parents and brothers but Christmas will always be a special event to me as a Christian. But honestly speaking, the commercial factor of Christmas helps to make the season more thrilling. Gift giving, the lights, the Christmas trees, the Christmas carols add to the excitement of the season. I am excited as our boss already informed us yesterday that we can have exchange gift here in the office which they normally do not allow, as not everyone in the office is a Christian, not everyone in the office is a Filipino and not every one believes in Christmas. There will be no fireworks on the eve of Christmas but there will be a simple celebration. We will feast with dishes we crave for a long time. We will have a videoke session which for sure will end up with dancing session. And as this is a day to celebrate, of course drinks will never be taken for granted. I maybe longing for my family but I know the longing amongst my colleagues who are mothers and fathers are terrible. Who would want to be away from their sons and daughters, from their spouses, from their siblings, from their parents on Christmas day? Everyone has a dream and mission to fulfill. Being away from our love ones is the heaviest sacrifice we encounter to fulfill this dream.

How I wish in the near future, lesser families need to be separated by poverty. How I wish in the near future, lesser families need to be separated by war.

Advance Merry Christmas and may we all realize the meaning of Christmas. GOD the FATHER sent his beloved his JESUS on Christmas to ensure that humankind will be saved.

Christmas is a perfect example of LOVE.

Monday, December 1, 2008

1st Day of December

When I woke up this morning, I can feel the cool breeze of December. I love December as it give you this feeling of special kind of joy. I really had a great childhood memories about Christmas season. My parents though financially unstable, made their very best to ensure we will all be happy on Christmas Day. New clothes,gift giving and of course Noche Buena. I will never forget that we would always put a sock in our window on the 24th day of December. When we woke up on the 25th, the socks were already filled with chocolates and candies. Now as a grown up, I will be celebrating again my Christmas away from my family. I will be celebrating it with my friends and colleague at work. I maybe away from my family but I am definitely thankful that my parents taught me that Christmas is not just about material things. Wherever or whomever I will be celebrating my Christmas,what is important is the essence why there is Christmas. Christmas is the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ. It is the perfect example of unconditional love. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Being Tested

it makes me happy.
it makes me smile.
though it hurts sometimes
to realize you can never be mine.

i won't insist myself.
i won't tire you down.
i won't hurt you
as long as you are happy i'll be fine.

serendipity is checking on me.
i won't give in
i won't throw my faith
let me pass on this one.

i know what i want.
i know what i need.
my life to you i offer
please guide me all the way.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

None of My Business

Today was quite frustrating for me. I usually don't care about other people's business but as Im getting older I realize that I must speak up what I have on mind. This morning, I saw an article about ADHD and believing that what I am about to do is right I showed the article to my friend. Thinking that this will help her understand more about her child's condition. I apologized if I offended her in a way but it was not my intention. Now I do feel guilty if she was hurt. All mother's will do everything for their children and it was so stupid of me to tell her that maybe her son is experiencing ADHD symptoms.

Am I too insensitive? I was just concern but too bad i have to hurt my friend.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

I want...

I want black nails...
I want highlights for my hair...
I want white gold necklace...
I want cross pendant in diamond and white gold...
I want a swatch watch...
I want versace red jeans & tommy girl perfume...
I want chuck taylor rubbershoes...
I want to go to Laos...
I want to go to HK...
I want to go to conquer my fear of heights, lets SKY DIVE...
I want my own digital camera...
I want to learn photography...
I want to star gaze, while lying on the beach near bonfire...
I want to JOYRIDE, a long drive till I get tired...
I want a body scrub.
I want a body massage.
I want to wear a beautiful dress on my brother's ordination.
I want to be beautiful on my brother's ordination.
I want a family picture.
I want braces and a laser treatment for my teeth.
I want to walk walk walk along the beach and sleep if I get tired.

Did I sound too selfish...hehehe...I woke up selfish today...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Blank.

Void.
Emptiness.
Uncontentment.
Questions.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Anxiety with my Dreams to be Reality

Since last week, after it was announced that four Filipino sewers were told that their contract will be terminated earlier, it gives me the feeling of uneasiness. I cannot take out from my head who might be next. With this global crisis going on, so many companies from different parts of the globe sent back home their Filipino employees back to the Philippines.

There are times that it gives me anxiety, as I am definitely enjoying the company where I am working right now. I might not be earning that BIG. But I can say I am earning more compared when I was still employed in the Philippines. Working abroad gave me independence. I learned more about myself. Characters that I never thought I have in me. I learned a lot from the people around me. Life definitely is not a bed of roses but it has so many things in store if you will just dream, pray, believe and persevere.

With more than 1 year of my stay here in Cambodia, I am not yet ready to give up this job. I love my job, I love the people I'm working with and I still have my dreams to pursue. There might be a crisis surrounding us, but this won't stop me to dream of having my own house, travel the whole southeastasia, good life for my family, and be ''someone'' someday.

I won't stop praying and working for my dreams to be reality.

Bro. Richie Fernando S.J.

Christmas Day on November 03,2008 - You Rock


Last November 03 I got a package from my dearest friend. It was like celebrating Christmas Day on November 03. It was so cool as I love all the stuff she and her lovely daughter sent to me. I really do LOVE IT ALL. But if I have to name my top three favorites? Well the red shirt, the Gucci wallet, and the jewelries. The coolest part is that she also prepared gift for my colleagues at work. Whew! I was really overwhelmed that day. It sounds creepy but once again I felt I am a very important person...hehehe...I am a very emotional person and I will not never forget this moment in my life. Thank you Super Mousy and thank you also to your lovely friendster buddy. Thanks also to your other half for being patient with you while collecting these stuff. You rock my world.

True Friendship




I got this forwarded message from a friend. I love this poem.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Khmer Water Festival 2008

From November 11 - November 14 Khmer's celebrated the yearly Water Festival. As I read on my Vattanac Bank desk calendar - this is the way the Khmer people commemorates the powerful Khmer Marine forces during the Khmer Empire. It is also their thanksgiving to the Gods of Water and Earth for providing the livelihood and welfare of the Cambodian People.

Living it...Loving it!

I'm happy...so happy.
It drives me to pursue my dreams.
Gives me strength to hold on.
Never been this contented.

Tears won't flow at night.
As I know in your dreams
You are holding me tight.
I will be fine. I will alright.

Days pass so fast.
I will live each day
As if tomorrow won't come.
Loving the way it is.

Broken pieces of yesterday.
Nightmares are just history.
Moving on to prove my worth.
Living my life on this earth.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

My Heart Cries

Lord let my heart and mind succumb in thy will.
Please give me strength to shed away from pleasure the world offers.
Let your angels carry me out from harm and misdemeanors.
May I be strong enough that no one will dictate my life aside from you.

Lord let my heart soften for all.
Please let me love without judging and questioning.
Let your grace guide me to share to the world the love you gave me.
May I be strong enough to live my life and love others unconditionally.

Lord let my mind traverse freely.
Please let me comprehend the things that I must stand up for.
Let your wisdom flow in me that I will think nothing but goodness.
May I be strong enough to fight what is right.

I am your humble servant and in you alone I found my solace.
I am your humble servant and in you alone I withdraw my strength.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Pilipinas Kung Mahal

The inadequacy of some countries to be self reliant aggravates the present state of recession. The worsening US economy magnifies the greater truth that most of third world nation relies solely to the fate of US. I am NOT an ECONOMIST neither a FINANCIAL ANALYST but it is very clear to me, once US falls, various third world counties crumble.

For a very depressing truth the Arroyo government kept on boasting that World Bank and International Monetary Fund are ready to alleviate grief stricken countries for some funds. How can you be so proud of unending list of loans the Philippines has to endure? Why do you feel Philippines is a BIG TIME when a financial institution or another first world country agreed to let us borrow funds? It is a SHAME that until now, after more than 100 years of independence from the Spaniards, we are still colonized by our own poverty and CORRUPT POLITICIANS. These POLITICIANS, kept digging our graves and justify to the WHOLE WORLD that we are nothing but a THIRLD WORLD COUNTRY waiting and begging for HELP.

In this very devastating time, why do the law makers and the government need to impose taxation on the remittances from abroad going to Philippines? Are they truly sick in mind that they think a 0.01% won’t matter in our pockets? Even a 1 peso does matter if you give a damn how you earn it.

In this very devastating time, when more and more Filipinos cannot even buy a single Pan de Sal for breakfast, it is a BULLSHIT that a police official caught carrying around almost P 7,000,000,.00 in his pocket and give a lousy excuse that it is for a contingency fund. They even have the face to tell the Filipino people that the will liquidate it afterwards. Please STOP under estimating the capacity of JUAN to think.

For a long time, I had given up my faith with our leaders. For a long time, I kept complaining why PHILIPPINES has to be in this state.

But three things kept me holding on, I won’t give up my Faith in GOD, I won’t give up my Love for this COUNTRY, and I won’t give up my Dream for my family.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

I've Got Mail

My birthday was on October 11, but this is just as special as the 11th as I received greeting cards from two new found friends Phy&Pia.



The happiness you brought to my life.
Gives me smile in times of strife.

May the Angels guide you thru the night.
Until the Sun shows and give broad daylight.

I will pray for your true happiness.
I will pray for your dreams.

Sending you my kisses.
I will treasure you deep within.

Friday, October 17, 2008

''...Richie Ate Rice With Me...'' Remembering After 12 years


Richard Fernando, SJ
1970 –1996


In 1996 Richie Fernando SJ was killed aged 26 years by a hand grenade released by a student in the Jesuit Refugee Service technical school for the handicapped near Phnom Penh. On January 3, 1996 Richie wrote in his diary:

"I wish, when I die, people remember not how great, powerful, or talented I was, but that I served and spoke for the truth, I gave witness to what is right, I was sincere in all my works and actions, in other words, I loved and I followed Christ."

Richie Fernando was a long way from home. He was a Filipino Jesuit in Buddhist Cambodia. He was educated and full of promise in a camp where refugees maimed by bullets and land mines and scarred by hunger and disease fought for hope. He loved life in a land where life was hard and death nearby.

Richie went to Cambodia in May 1995 as part of his Jesuit training. He had entered the Society in 1990 and finished the novitiate and collegiate studies. Before going on to theology studies and ordination, he was sent to work at Banteay Prieb, a Jesuit technical school for the handicapped not far from Phnom Penh. Banteay Prieb describes itself as a "place that enables the disabled to tell their own stories, to gather strength and hope from being with one another, and to learn a new skill that enhances a sense of dignity and worth." Here people disabled by landmines, polio, and accidents learn skills that allow them to earn a living. Banteay Prieb means "the Center of the Dove."

When Richie arrived, his devotion to the students quickly won their trust. He began learning their Khmer language and came to appreciate their religious traditions. And he loved to share their stories, stories of survival during Pol Pot's genocidal regime, stories of the devastation of their society through poverty, displacement, and the nine million landmines that still plague their land.

One of these survivors is Sarom. Already an orphan, at 16 Sarom became a soldier; two years later he was maimed by a landmine. Sarom finished his courses at Banteay Prieb and wanted to stay on there, but school authorities found him disruptive and asked him to leave. Richie Fernando mentioned Sarom in a letter to his friends in the Philippines, saying that although Sarom was "tricky" he still had a place in Richie's heart.

On October 17, 1996, Sarom came to the school for a meeting. Angered, he suddenly reached into a bag he was carrying, pulled out a grenade, and began to move towards a classroom full of students; the windows of the room were barred, leaving the students no escape. Richie Fernando came up behind Sarom and grabbed him. "Let me go, teacher; I do not want to kill you," Sarom pleaded. But he dropped his grenade, and it fell behind him and Richie. In a flash Richie Fernando was dead, falling over with Sarom still grasped in his arms, protecting him from the violence he had made.

Only four days before his death Richie had written a long letter to his Jesuit friend Totet Banaynal. "I know where my heart is," he wrote; "It is with Jesus Christ, who gave his all for the poor, the sick, the orphan ...I am confident that God never forgets his people: our disabled brothers and sisters. And I am glad that God has been using me to make sure that our brothers and sisters know this fact. I am convinced that this is my vocation."


Three days after Richie's death, his shocked family and friends in the Philippines celebrated his funeral. At the same time, his shocked Cambodian friends carried an urn containing cloths soaked in his blood to a Buddhist funeral mound. In their shock they mourned; and in their mourning they gave thanks for Richie, the man they knew and loved, their son, their brother, their teacher, their friend.

Shocked by what he had caused, Sarom sat in his jail cell and mourned too.

In March 1997, Mr. and Mrs. Fernando wrote to Cambodia's King Sihanouk, asking for pardon for Sarom; somehow, someone had to stop the violence. Sarom had not wanted to kill Richie. "Richie ate rice with me," he said; "he was my friend."

Note: Please note above article and image was taken from http://www.jesuitmission.org.au/index.php?page=59. I sent an email to the Jesuits asking asking permission to publish this article in my blog and still waiting for their response. My intension is only to commemorate the legacy of a young man who fulfilled his life purpose. To be a man of God, to be a man for others.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Where is Bro. Richie Now?

About more than 12 years ago, I saw on TV a documentary wherein a young semminarian named Bro. Richie from Ateneo de Manila sacrificed his life for the safety of his community. I cannot recall all the details as it was long time ago and I think it was not even covered by big media networks in the Philippines. Fortunately, I was not able to forget his name as he was the one who made me dream that I would to the same for my community. This young man inspired me to look at the broader aspect of life and service to God.

When I saw the documentary about his life, It never occurs to me that I would be, in the future, have to travel to Cambodia. The country wherein his last breath was dedicated for the humanity and glory of God. I'm working in Cambodia for more than a year now. I never stop to think about Bro. Richie. But as of now, all I know is his name.

Monday, October 6, 2008

My D&F Fammy



Thank you for accepting me of who I am.
Thank you for for helping me overcome my weaknesses.
Thank you letting me realize my strength.
Thank you for the friendship.
Thank you for being my family.
Thank you for all the laughters.
Thank you for all the tears.

I will forever treasure the memories.
I will always be grateful for the lessons.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Visiting Vietnam

September 27 - October 01 is a long national holiday in Cambodia as they commemorate Pchum Ben Day. They also call it Festival of the dead as they offer prayers & foods to their love ones who already passed away. In the Philippines, we call it All Souls Day which is commemorated on the 1st day of November and the All Saints Day which is on the 2nd day of November.

With this very long holiday, me and my other two colleagues decided to take advantage of this opportunity and visit Vietnam. We left Phnom Penh on Saturday at around 7:30 AM and as expected almost all of the people in Phnom Penh are going to their homeland which cause a heavy traffic in all roads.





Crossing from Cambodia to Vietnam needs to cross Mekong river. The road going to the port wherein a barge is waiting to carry our bus across the river was insanely flooded by buses, cars, motors, travelers, vendors, back packers and everything else. Based on my estimate, it took us 6 long hours of traffic jam in a 10 kilometer route. An original 6 hrs travel from Phnom Penh City to Ho Chi Minh City became a half day, yes, a crazy 12 1/2 hours travel. We arrived in a our final destination at 8:00PM.




Being a lover of long trip, the whole 12 1/2 hours for me was exciting and an adventure. It was my first time to travel this route so everything I see still amazes me. Inside the bus and hearing multi languages spoken by different races added up to my excitement.


About 1 hour after crosssing the Mekong river, I find the towns we are passing by greener and seems cleaner. I am a big fan of green fields or lets just say a fan of natural landscapes. For I know Gods magical hands has a lot to say on this.



We arrived in Bavet City, the Cambodian border before 5 o'clock in the afternoon. As usual, I was in awe to see the area sprouted by big hotels and big casinos. How on earth a thirld world country has the capacity to spend in this kind of luxury. I easily came back to my senses and realized that reality bites. In this thirld world country,same as my home, the rich becomes richer and the poor becomes poorer. Survival of the fittest is a common attitude.



We need to stop again in Moc Bai, the Vietnam border to also do some paperworks with the immigration. One thing made me smile to realize that it is indeed convenient for us to travel across Southeast Asia. Thank you for the ASEAN.

After Moc Bai, it gave me goosebumps, to see that the bus is passing by Tay Ninh province. This is the province where I work before. The last time I was here was almost more than 3 years ago. I kept on looking on signages and awaiting to see TRANG BANG INDUSTRIAL PARK, wherein D&F Vietnam (my first company out of the country)is located.

After seeing Trang Bang Industrial Park and passing by the bridge in-front of Cuchi Catholic Church, it brought back to me beautiful memories. Vietnam is the first country I ever traveled. Good and bad memories were still memories that I will treasure. It helps me to grow as a person and helps me to be what I am now.

Seeing the Maxi Mark department store brings back to me my weekends in Vietnam. It is funny to recall that my grocery list includes, Colgate's toothpaste and tootbrush, VinaCafe 3-in-1 coffee, unpopular perfumes and never to forget the dried jackfruit/bananas which I stock in my cabinet and bring home to Philippines as pasalubong.




I am definitely back now in Vietnam. My stay will be short but it will be worthy for sure. It struck me to realize that after 3 years, the progress is very much visible. Ho Chi Minh city is at its best and still growing. Ho Chi Minh City is now cleaner, richer and brighter. Peoples lifestyle is also growing with its nations economy. Never forget to mention that the discipline amongs its citizens has been maintained and even improved a lot. See those motorcyles? Either in the city or in the provinces, everyone is wearing a helmet which you cannot see 3 years ago.

One thing is clear to me, I LOVE TO BE BACK IN VIETNAM ^_^

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Ang Lufeeeeet...Ang Paiiiiit

Umiiyak ang puso at sa langit nakatanaw.
Pighati ang dulot ng pag-ibig na ligaw.
Nahumaling ng tuluyan sa dulot mong pag-asa
Subalit dapat supilin ng di tuluyang masadlak sa dusa.

Higit pa sa pagpigil ng aking hininga.
Ang pagtalikod sa iyo sa tuwi tuwina.
Ngunit ang isip at sadyang matino pa.
Harapin ang katotohanan at ito ay labanan.

Sabay sa agos ng ating mahiwagang buhay.
Mga pagsubok na minsan di maka agapay.
Subalit hindi sapat na dahilan upang hayaan.
Tuluyang lamunin at mawala sa katinuan.

Salamat sa mga pangaral, Salamat sa mga dasal
Hindi tuluyang landas ay naging masukal
Kapit sa maykapal at pagsambit ng dasal
Sa araw araw sa bibig at isip aking hinihiyaw.

Kung kelan man dumating ang ligayang dulot.
Ng tunay na pag-ibig na langit ang gumuhit.
Panahon lamang ang tanging makakapagsabi.
Kasalukuyan ang pait sa puso pilit iwinawaglit.

Monday, September 15, 2008

St. Joseph Parish in Phnom Penh


Last Sunday was my first time to visit a real Catholic Church here in Phnom Penh.
Though the mass was in Khmer, it definitely adds up to my growth as a maturing Christian. It widens my sense of appreciation not only for my faith but my appreciation for the Khmer culture.


Now, I will have a broader option on how to attend mass on obligatory days. If there is heavy rain downpour on Saturday afternoon and I miss the mass in World Vision building, I can still attend a mass on Sunday morning in St. Joseph Parish near Japanese bridge.


I know my faith with God's blessing let me wander and let me come closer on my purpose in this lifetime.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Uncertainty



It hurts me.
It kills me.

Why it has to be this way?
I DO NOT want it this way.

Let me forget you.
Let me NOT forget you.

Let me love you.
Let me NOT love you.

Stay away from me.
Please DO NOT leave me.

I am lying to myself.
And it’s shattering me to pieces.

Pagmasdan Mo Naman

Oi kaibigan kelan mo ba huling pinagmasdan,
Ganda ng mundo, handog ng kalikasan.
Pasumandaling tumigil sa pinagkakaabalahan
Iyong damhin samyo ng hangin at sikat ng araw.

Di man kanais nais minsan hanging nalalanghap
Hindi sapat na dahilan upang di magpasalamat.
Sa buhay na bigay ng ating Poong Maykapal.
Sa Pag-ibig na sa puso ay nananalaytay.

Ganid man ang mga taong sa atin ay nakapalibot.
Hindi sapat na dahilan upang tayo ay mag damot.
Maging bukas ang palad at loob sa iyong kapwa
Huwag mithiin na isadlak ni isa man sa dusa.

Pag-ibig na walang dungis ay sadyang matamis.
Pagka pantay-pantay sa lipunan ay aking ninanais.
Panalangin ko ay tatag sa gitna ng sigalot.
Lakas ng loob na tanging sa Diyos ako huhugot.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

My Beautiful Southeast Asia


**courtesy of Nations Online Project**

My beautiful Southeast Asia continously fascinates me.

For most of the western people, they see Southeast asian countries and race almost same with each other. But if you will dig deeper you can see that each country has its unique and beautiful culture.

Most of these countries had been colonized by various western and other asian countries. Which in a way created a different fusion of culture, language, religion and belief.

This part of the earth had been battered by colonizers, grief stricken wars, phenomenal natural disasters and other man made or natural catastrophies. But faith in God, strong family ties and love for the country keeps the people fight back and move on with their lives.

It is funny to think that in Southeast Asia you can find the 3rd World nations but it is also a fact that here in Southeast Asis you can find the richest people on earth.

Number of men and women sacrificed their lives to fight for the honor of their motherlands. Parents keep struggling to fight poverty and illiteracy to brigthen the future of the next generation. Younger generations are fired up to keep the flame burning for patriotism and service to mankind.

As I had been to three Southeast Asian countries, namely, The Philippines - my homeland, Vietnam - the first country I traveled for work and Cambodia - wherein Im working right now, the urge in me to travel the whole Southeast Asia continous.

It is my dream to travel all the eleven (11) countries before I reach 33 yers of age.