Essence of Time

Time is one of the most important essences of life. One can be rich with proper disposition of time. Struggling in this competitive life leads us to so many distractions.

We got goals we want to achieve. We got dreams we want to fulfill. And yet, there are tons of obstacles that will stall us to nothing. Individuals who embody discipline in their lives are admirable people. Discipline maximizes time. There are individuals who run their lives with passion on being in order, everything must be properly planned.

There are individuals who are laid back, appreciate what is in store for today and face tomorrow when It comes. Either of these choices is understandable. One must live life according to comfort and not to conformity.

Time is truly magical. People have different perception how to spend time. There are these individuals who spent until their last second based on what they planned beforehand. They don’t like surprises and freaks out easily if anything suddenly came out of hand. Truly astonishing. My personal belief, leaders usually comes from
this niche of society. Everything is in order, and their imagination run until the far flung futures. They maximize what was left from yesterday; take the most out of today and their imagination reaps the fruits of tomorrow.

Time is passion. Individuals who can still smile after a long period of disappointment are admirable. Striving for something and suddenly at the end of the day you receive nothing, is quite a nuisance. Rather than squirming they go home with a smile and consider it a challenging day. These people inspire me. They take life with so much patience and being with them make the world seems a better place.

In whichever way we spend our time, may it bring out our purpose and nothing but the best in us.

Paranoia at Work

I have been angry with myself for awhile as I cannot understand with all the blessings that come my way I am still filled with anxiety and fear. Every day coming to work is becoming a pain and uncertainties creeps my head to the extent that I can’t be productive anymore.

I am trying for the past 10 month to cope up with the new working situation I am in but the longer time I am in here, the more it becomes harder for me. I don’t care spending long hours of work and sleepless nights. What I care the most is about the quality of my work. I feel that I am not worthy of the position. I feel that I am not doing enough to perform my obligations. There are lots of things to be done and deadlines to be met. Unfortunately, I got lot of it I cannot finish on time.

Doubt on my capacity and leadership lingers in me most of the time. Unmet needs by buyers leave me disgusted over myself.The wost thing is that I am trying to inspire people around me to make them feel good about working and bring out the best of themselves while I am crashing and breaking inside. I feel so imbecile when there are times that I cannot fight for them and insist to other people that we are right.

Decision makings are harder to implement as I have stepped into a new arena which my knowledge is comparable to an infant. Coward as I call myself for the times that I tried to run away from the situation that I am in.

May God help me that I may not go insane if this paranoia won’t stop soon.