Thursday, May 28, 2009

Never Give Up

my heart sings an unknown tune.
horizon widen further more.
yesterday's argument already forgotten.
moving on for today, dreaming of tomorrow.

i had been hurt, too many to count.
ego lambasted, bruised pride.
smile back that's all i can do.
cannot turn away now, forget adieu.

serenity in life seems too aloof.
i need an angel to hold on.
breaking down is an easy escape.
but i will face reality to keep my sanity.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Ten Reminders How Should I Run My Life:

1) In everything you do, put God first and he will direct you and crown
your effort with success.

2) Do not do unto others what you do not want others do unto you.

3) Patience is a virtue.

4) Respect begets respect.

5) Empathize to realize.

6) I am not perfect.

7) Always say thank you.

8) Never be afraid to say I Love You and I am Sorry.

9) Dream big, work hard, pray hard, and smile often.

10) Live each day with a purpose. Start and end each day with a prayer.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Loosen Up in Laos

My trip to Laos on April 12, 2009 to April 15, 2009 together with colleagues Brenda and Rose. As usual im just using my phone to take photos...


Ready to go!!!


Stung Streng - Mekong River


Stung Streng Park


Cambodian Border (Stung Streng)


On the road to Laos. Special thanks to the Cambodian guy in Stung Streng who was very helpful to us.


Meeeeeh!!!


Leaving Cambodia - The Border.


Arriving in Laos - The Border.


Finally we are here in Laos (from Brenda's fone)...




At the bus terminal in Pakse.


Pakse!!!


Park in Pakse.






Sleeper bus going to Vientiane.


Vientiane!!!













Next stop???

Monday, March 9, 2009

Wat Phnom Pagoda - Phnom Penh City

Yesterday, March 08, 2009 we finally decided to try visit Wat Phnom Pagoda. As I still don't have a digital camera, I'm lucky to have my ever dependable W700i fone.













Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Buhay Buhay!!!

Ang aga aga wala na agad internet connection sa office. Time check 8:36 am, ang start namin dito sa work eh 7:00 am.

Pagpasok ko sa trabaho, una sympreng gagawin i-on ang computer. Well, dahil hindi ko ini-expect ang mga pwedeng mangyari sa buong araw, kailangan ko ng ‘’divine intervention’’ so sympre kailangan tumawag muna ako kay ‘’BRO’’. Favorite kong prayer yong prayer ni St. Francis of Asisi. Lord, make me an instrument of thy peace, where there is hatred let me sow love... I think high school ako when I started to love this prayer. Napanood ko kasi yong movie about sa life ni St. Francis of Asisi at sympre na-amaze ako sa kanya.

Usually, pag upo ko sa harap ng computer open agad ng email sa Outlook, at pag wala naman email na dapat i-reply agad open ko rin muna ang Yahoo Messenger (invisible mode)., ang Friendster at Manila Bulletin. Nakaka frustrate lang kasi sa Manila Bulletin at ang bagal nila mag update ng website nila. Dati mahilig ako mag-PEX (www.pinoyechange.com) kaya lang now hindi na at busy rin sa trabaho. Pag breaktime naman sa tanghali, mas gusto ko magbaon ng tinapay kahit na sa loob lang ng factory ang canteen at dorm namin. Habang kumakain ng tinapay eh youtube mode naman. Super na appreciate ko talaga na maluwag sa office namin ang use ng internet. Ang laking tulong kaya para mabawasan ang homesick, connected ka sa mga online friends, nakaka relax, at sympre updated ka sa mga nangyayari sa mundo.

Weekend na naman pala. Well ang saya pag Sabado kasi until 4 o’clock pm lang ang work naming at usually eh schedule naming ito mag simba, kain sa labas at mag grocery. Pero parang mas gusto ko magsimba tomorrow. Para maiba iba naman ang malanghap kong hangin. Bahala na mamaya kung ano ang magiging mood ko.

Nasa Polangui ang family ko ngayon para sa Thanksgiving mass ng aking brother na ngayon ay ‘’Father’’ na. Yon nga lang ang downside pag nag work ka sa abroad may mga special occasions sa pamilya mo at hindi mo witness. Pwede naman kung sa pwede pero syempre ang mahal kaya ng plane ticket. Well, sige tyaga tyaga na lang muna. Naalala ko, kahapon nga pala nag check ako sa website ng Ayala Life. Wala pa kasi akong insurance, pero merong Philhealth kasi nga required ka pag nag register ka sa POEA. Sumakit ang ulo ko kakabasa ng mga anik anik sa Ayala Life. Nag email na lang ako para maka receive ako ng mas specific na mga details doon sa inquiry ko.

Time check 3:27 ng hapon.

Sure na ako hindi ako magsisimba today. Bukas na lang doon sa chapel sa may Japanese Bridge. Maliit lang yong chapel tapos kailangan magtanggal ka ng sapatos pag pumasok ka sa loob ng church. Ang kagandahan naman ng maliit na crowd pag nagsisimba eh mas intimate ang dating. Ang gagaling nga ng choir doon eh, mga Pinoy din. Well alam mo naman ang Pinoy, hindi papahuli sa kantahan. Antok na antok talaga ako. Ano kaya maulam mamayang gabi. May dalawang lata pa ako ng Century Tuna na pabaon sa akin ni Mama, may 10 pcs. pa akong itlog bili ko nong Sabado. Hmp, sana lang plain ang flavor ng tuna para pwede kong gawin omelet. Actually libre naman ang food dito sa company, kaya lang minsan syempre parang gusto mo tumikip ng ibang putahe. Eh hello kahit third world country ang Cambodia ang mahal kaya ng grocery dito. Kaya naman para tipid, every week, naggo-grocery ako ng 1 loaf na bread. Pwede kasi sya sa breakfast, lunch, dinner, snack at kung gusto mo eh gawin mo pang dessert. Dapat din hindi ako maubusan ng margarine at asukal, nyahahaha... Basta tyaga tyaga lang muna, mapapasaan ba at sa susunod makakakain ulit ako ng clubhouse sandwich...hehehe. O sige na at inaantok na talaga ako, mabuti na lang nakapag laba ako kagabi...

Have a nice weekend sa ating lahat!!!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Text ni Papa

I was really bored this afternoon. Many things to do at work but it seems my body doesn’t want to cooperate. Feel so sleepy and useless =)) So I just browsed by phone to check messages. I saw again this text message from my father last February 16, 2009.

‘’...Good to hear that. You’re old enough to decide. But as your father I can’t help not to worry. Ikaw na ang bahala dyan makisama ng husto sa mga kasamahan mo dyan. They are your temporary family...’’

Yes, you read it right, he is a sweet person. So many people see him nothing but a drunkard. But if you will just talk to him he is a very intelligent and caring person. When my first time to leave and work abroad my mother was the one who checked if all things I need are complete and my father was the one who stack
my things inside the luggage bag. They are the best!!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

My Perception

I never thought it would occur to me.
Letting you go would also set me free.

Trap in this state called confusion.
Animosity deepens my indecision.

Bitter words can cut a heart.
Once spitted out cannot just retract.

Forgiveness is a gift from above.
An act made stronger by love.

Sweet soul radiates with innocence.
Smile can inspire me to live my dreams.

Life can never be perfect.
We were born with our own defects.

Spread love with your neighbor.
Let God be glorified and adored.

Monday, February 16, 2009

2009 Valentine's Day in Phnom Penh



This year is my second year to celebrate Valentine’s Day here in Phnom Penh. I never thought the importance of this event in Cambodian culture until this year. Last year, I was so frustrated to learn that the production people do not want to extend overtime because it was Valentine’s Day. It was so embarrassing to remember that last year I was even questioning if they indeed know the real purpose of the celebration.





Last Saturday, work hour was only until 4 o’clock in the afternoon, on my face I realized and learnt how Valentine’s Day is such a big deal in Cambodia. Most of the roads I passed through you can see vendors selling roses, stuff toys and balloons in sidewalks sprouted like I had never seen in Phnom Penh. There was heavy traffic along major thoroughfares. It was also beautiful scenery to see young people in their motorbikes while holding roses and stuff toys.



I was embarrassed to myself and had to admit that last year I was wrong and stupid to perceive that they don’t know the meaning of Valentine’s Day. I think here in Cambodian they celebrate Valentine’s Day with a bang...

Thursday, February 12, 2009

25 things you probably know or don’t know about me...

1) My real name is Marianne Shery I. Saminal
2) Hope to treat my parents for a world cruise.
3) Dream to travel the world with my two brothers.
4) My all time favorite celebrity is Alvin Patrimonio
5) I don’t eat atis, durian, dragon fruit and rambutan.
6) Until now I mess up using chopsticks.
7) I finished reading Purpose Driven Life for 4 years not 40 days.
8) If time machines exist–I would love to see the Beatles in the late 50’s.
9) I wish to travel the whole Southeast Asia and HK before I reach 33.
10) I cannot hold ice candy with my bare hands.
11) Nobody dance with me on my first JS Prom.
12) The movie A Walk to Remember can still make me cry.
13) I cannot play any musical instrument.
14) 10 years ago I listen to Linkin Park to sleep.
15) I can go to concerts alone.
16) I was a fan of F4 – saw two of them in person Ken and Vaness.
17) I enjoyed my college days than my high school days.
18) Got very frustrated when I failed volleyball tryout in high school.
19) I thumb suck.
20) Hope to save money for braces & laser treatment for my teeth.
21) I got 2 warts in my neck.
22) My model people – Mother Theresa and Job.
23) Vietnam is the first country I ever traveled for work.
24) I had never been to Manila Zoo.
25) I love my job. I love being a Garment Merchandiser.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Laos and Thailand Perhaps?

Laos and Thailand are neighboring countries of Cambodia. For months now, I have been dreaming to travel in Laos and Thailand. The valleys of Laos fascinate me a lot and the temples of Thailand struck me as always.

I have been working in Cambodia for one and a half year now and it is really embarrassing to admit that I had never been to Angkor Wat.

As Cambodia will be celebrating the Khmer New Year on April, if God will permit, I would love to travel by bus in Siem Reap and see Angkor Wat, go to Bangkok and see the Grand Palace and of course take photos on Laos natural wonders.

I have one and a half month left to prepare. I will try to make a list of things I need to be sure I am ready for the trip.

1) North Face backpack - :p bought one today :D
2) Digicam - need to stick on my loaf bread and margarine to save LOL.
3) Black Slippers for comfortable walking.
4) Bus Ticket - last time it was $16 from Phnom Penh to Bangkok.
5) Money - I travel not for shopping but better to be ready.
6) Lonely planet travel guides and maps.
7) My own itinerary as I won't have money to splurge in tour packages.

Whew! God please please please...let me do this...

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Fr. Christian Vincent I. Saminal, O.S.J.

The most important event in the life of my family. The priestly ordination of my brother, Father Christian Vincent I. Saminal, O.S.J. on February 02, 2009 in Santuario de San Jose in Greenhills.









Wednesday, January 28, 2009

in the hour of confusion...

in every hour that i was allowed to breath and live, all i want is to please god. i am not perfect neither i am a saint. but my heart crave for eternal happiness that i know only god can give me. i know what i want and i know what i must do but there are times temptations are just too hard to resist. i had passed through dark times that only death is the best escape for me. but god never allowed me to do so. i want to live my life in god’s will and purpose. but confusion, fear, and pride clouds up my path to where i should be. there are times that when my heart is surrounded by so much happiness, i began to falter and even question my real purpose. so much happiness would even stir my heart and fool myself that i don’t need to sacrifice to know my purpose. i know in my heart and in my mind what is right and what is wrong but why i still entertain and play with temptation. why do i need to be sad and feel alone to realize once again what my heart and god asked me to do. it is not easy to give up on things who makes you happy and feel special. it takes a lot of courage and faith in the lord to live once life for others and for god.

i haven’t shed a tear for a while now. sad thoughts would leave me a bit worried but not depressed. i know only in god’s grace i can continue to live this way. right now i feel so ungrateful that i am not doing the best i can be for my purpose. lately, all i was thinking is my temporal happiness rather than my purpose. this is hard, its like shattering my heart to pieces. its like asking me to stop breathing. its like asking me to die. god, please i am asking for your unwavering grace, to make myself accept that i can only achieve eternal happiness through fulfillment of my real purpose.

is it too much to ask?

is it too much to ask?
can i borrow your time.
my mind dims completely
knowing your away from me.

is it too much to ask?
for someone to love me.
i am loosing hope
can’t you really love me.

is it too much to ask?
to take away the pain.
uncertainties of yesterday.
god please take it away.

is it too much to ask?
to be perfectly happy.
i love them so deeply.
don’t take them away from me.

is it too much to ask?
to be with them always.
i’m praying for their long lives.
that only you GOD can grace.

i’m so sorry if i ask to much.
cause only with you i can ask such.
in my world you make all possible.
you’re great power is undeniable.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Kathang Isip

parang hinahati sa gitna
pakiramdam ko ay parang tinataga.
isipin ko lang na hawak ka nya.
mas naisin ko pa na huwag na huminga.

ang weirdo naman kasi pelikula.
parang teleserye sa kapuso at kapamilya.
ang taong mahal mo, may mahal naman iba.
ngayon umiiyak, mamaya lang tatawa na.

bakit nga ba hindi naging 1:1 ang ratio
ang babae at lalaki dito sa mundo.
ayan tuloy may salawahan,
yon iba naman, mamamatay ng tigang.

wag masyado mag react sa huling kataga.
blog ko to kaya isusulat ko ang gusto ko.
natatawa ka man sa pinagsasabi dito.
gumawa ka na lang ng sarili mo.

note: pasensya na mainit ulo ko today...

Friday, January 23, 2009

Windang

Ang dikta ng puso, minsan di maintindihan.
Kung alin ang di pwede syang ipagpipilitan.
Si Juan ay may Juana na.
Pero bakit si Juanita aali aligid pa.

Puso minsan baliw kung ituring.
Pilit ka nitong lilinlangin.
Mga bagay na mahalaga sa buhay.
Nalilimutan pag pag-ibig ang kumaway.

Masahol pa sa batang iyakin.
Pag puso umiyak at hatiin.
Pag-ibig di tiyak kailan darating.
Hadlangan man pilit pa ring ibabaling.

Lungkot at pighati sa taong nilisan.
Ng tanging pagibig sa kanyang buhay.
Katinuan wari’y mahihiwalay.
Sa tuwing puso mo ay sasablay.

Subalit tunay pag-ibig ay matamis.
Ligayang dulot, hindi maililihim.
Ngiti sa labi ng taong umiibig.
Lungkot di maiisip ligaya nananaig.

Tanging dasal, tanging hiling.
Tunay na pag-ibig aking makapiling.
Sa Diyos ang aking tanging inuusal.
Biyayaan ako ng pinagpalang kasal.

Monday, January 19, 2009

My Brother is now a Father to be!!!



After almost ten years of honing under the Oblates of St. Joseph seminary, my dear brother Bro. Christian Vincent I. Saminal, OSJ will be ordained on February 02, 2009.

I'm so excited that after my boss allowed me to go home on February 01 and be back in the office on February 03, it gave me sleepless nights.

It will cost me my savings as I need to buy my own plane ticket but it doesn't matter now. My friend is right, if I need to spend my money to make myself and other people happy especially my loveones then don't hesitate to spend. Life is too short, make the most out of it.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Hollow

Mind traverses the space.
Tears flow in my face.
Stars make me yearn for you.
Moon makes me feel so blue.

I feel so alone and lonely.
Something is missing deep within me.
Don’t I deserve someone to love me?
Is it too much to ask to be loved so freely?

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Shooting While in TukTuk

A Landmark in one of Phnom Penh's busiest intersection.

The Newly Renovated Stung Mean Chey Bridge. Finally, after months of waiting it's now open for traffic.

After the Stung Mean Chey Bridge it is impossible if you will not notice the Buddhist Cemetery on the side.


According to Wikipedia - A gendarmerie or gendarmery (pronounced /dʒɛnˈdɑrməriː/, or /ˌʒɑndɑrməˈriː/ after the French) is a military body charged with police duties among civilian populations. So I guess this place is a camp either for the military or the police.

The van just covered my subject in time when i pressed the shutter. Anyway, better luck next week and hope I will get better views. This is a church of Jesus of the Latter Day Saints community. They usually raise a Cambodian Flag but I can't see it today.

Full Moon on Saturday Night



This kind of scenery makes me yearn for a better camera. Fortunately,I got with me my ever dependable Sony Ericson W700i. It might not exactly captured what I had seen but at least it gave me a souvenir of the full moon on January 10,2009 around 7 o'clock in the evening in Phnom Penh, Cambodia.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Purple or Blue Tulips


If a Man can give me this, I think I would love to marry him...