Today's Rant

Fallin

yes i think i am fallin.
as kaleidescope is all i can see.
makes me happy when you are around.
drum beats pounding my heart.

though i know you won't agree.
i didn't say you need to reciprocate.
just let me feel what i feel.
give me the freedom and make a deal.

Inequality

why there is so much hurting.
killing their own flesh and blood.
i tried to pretend i didn't feel.
but it is too much and makes me ill.

there is so much joy still so much pain.
inequality confuses my dreams.
i tried so hard still not so much gain.
when should i tell myself to stop?

i'm trying to be happy but i am not.
can i put justice in my hand
why they can't understand
they had taken there innocence isn't it enough

Sulking in Sorrow

Neither do I want chaos in my life.
Uncontentment creeps like a killer at night.
A traitor that ruined the defenses you got.
I realized I am tough only in broad daylight.

I was shattered by my own wounds.
Blinded by hurt and sulken by sorrow.
Unable to traverse this life with happiness.
Demons of yesterday still trapped deep inside.

Conflicting ideas and stupid ego.
Paralyzed the growth to let go.
Closed mind listens to no one.
Selfishness tighten the rope.

Anxiety will give you nothing but despair.
Open your eyes together with your heart.
Be not afraid to emphatize as this is a way to realize.
Let love rule and it will give freedom to your life.

Sweeties - ADIK

My last post was almost a month ago...coz I got stuck by a virus called sweeties. Luckily it was not a deadly virus. It’s more of a virus that makes you feel younger. But the worst thing of it, it did something chaotic to my quite and normal life.

For months, PBB Teen Edition 2 was running in TFC and I kept on watching it.
As watching on TV was not enough, I tried to look thru the net about PBB Teen
Edition 2, especially anything about Valerie and Ejay...

YouTube ...still not enough to satisfy my curiosity. I kept on searching. Voila!
I ended up smiling and laughing by myself while reading Sweeties thread, under PEX community forum.

Conversation amongst the members are definitely so natural. I can feel the sincerity and good vibe while ‘’lurking’’ as they call it. My problem, how can I join them not having a PEX account.

A first, I was a bit embarrassed at myself as I found it a bit too teeny booppy.
But I felt I was drugged as I kept coming back for more. Damn, I can’t hold it anymore to just read and smile, I must join in.

I thought only teenagers was posting. But then as I analyzed the conversations,
I realized that people from all walks of life do take time to post and enjoy.
Official month I joined, June 2008.I’m an official Pexter now, this term also makes me smile.

Trust me, now i’m not just a PEXTER.... I am proud to say i’m a CPA. CERTIFIED PEX ADDICT...in short ADIK And i just love typing....BWAHAHAHAHAHA...damn..haylabit...

What worries me when the time comes that work in the office will be really tight.
Trust me, i’m trying to withdraw myself but I really can’t. One thing is clear to me, they are special and important. Damn, is this love????..bwahahaha..with rolling man...PROMISE I LOVE IT!!!